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elrhiarhodan) wrote2011-03-04 05:29 pm
elrhiarhodan) wrote2011-03-04 05:29 pm
White Collar Ficlet - Reservations (WC100 - #028 - LOVER)
Title: Reservations
Prompt: White Collar 100 - #028: Lover
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elrhiarhodan
Rating: R
Characters/Pairing: Neal Caffrey (reference to Peter/Elizabeth/Neal), Mozzie
Fandom: White Collar
Spoilers: None
Warnings/Enticements/Triggers: None
Word Count: 300 Exactly!
Summary: Contemplating forgiveness.
Set after Drowning in Regrets. Continues the Danger Series, which is now a single entry on AO3.
THE DANGER SERIES:
TARGET | HUNT | CASE | FILE | BACKGROUND | INTERROGATION | WITNESS | HOME | HOME 2 | FAMILY | FAMILY 2 | TEAM | UNIT | UNIT 2 | PAPER | CLAY | PAINT | INK | CHECK | CASH | CREDIT | LOAN | SAVINGS | GOLD | WIFE | SILVER | GLASS | PARTNER | BACKGROUND 2 | CLUE 2 | TRACK | BOYFRIEND | BOYFRIEND 2 | LOVER | FAMILY 3 | DIAMONDS | CREDIT 2 | WIFE 2 |
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Neal listened to Peter’s impassioned vow, and was unsurprisingly torn at his own reaction.
A part of him wanted to rush in, have a knock down – drag out fight, and then forgive him. Another, cooler, angrier, smarter part of him wanted to stay away, let Peter stew a while – a long while, let him linger until the pain became as much a part of him as the color of his eyes or the lines on his palms.
It galled him how at how easily Peter was able to do this to him, how he knew just how deep to stick the knife, just how much to twist it to make him bleed. And as bad as that pain was, the fact that he didn’t run – he didn’t even think of running, was worse.
Neal knew that the first words out of Peter’s mouth, once he picked his jaw up off the floor, were going to be “I’m sorry.” And then he’d try to explain everything.
Neal was certain that he’d forgive Peter, and they’d even be happy again – all three of them. But Neal wasn’t sure if he could ever trust Peter the way he had – wholly and without reservation.
Between the three of them, there had never been any calculation on the price of love – they all gave in equal portions of risk and joy. But now, Neal wondered how often he was going to have to measure out his commitment, if he would be better off holding back just enough to keep himself whole and sane when this happened again.
It was quiet in the main room.
Moz was leaning against the doorframe, watching him. As Neal walked by – to start something, or to finish it, he stopped, brushed a kiss against his friend’s cheek and whispered, “Thank you.”
FIN
Prompt: White Collar 100 - #028: Lover
Author:
elrhiarhodanRating: R
Characters/Pairing: Neal Caffrey (reference to Peter/Elizabeth/Neal), Mozzie
Fandom: White Collar
Spoilers: None
Warnings/Enticements/Triggers: None
Word Count: 300 Exactly!
Summary: Contemplating forgiveness.
Set after Drowning in Regrets. Continues the Danger Series, which is now a single entry on AO3.
THE DANGER SERIES:
TARGET | HUNT | CASE | FILE | BACKGROUND | INTERROGATION | WITNESS | HOME | HOME 2 | FAMILY | FAMILY 2 | TEAM | UNIT | UNIT 2 | PAPER | CLAY | PAINT | INK | CHECK | CASH | CREDIT | LOAN | SAVINGS | GOLD | WIFE | SILVER | GLASS | PARTNER | BACKGROUND 2 | CLUE 2 | TRACK | BOYFRIEND | BOYFRIEND 2 | LOVER | FAMILY 3 | DIAMONDS | CREDIT 2 | WIFE 2 |
Neal listened to Peter’s impassioned vow, and was unsurprisingly torn at his own reaction.
A part of him wanted to rush in, have a knock down – drag out fight, and then forgive him. Another, cooler, angrier, smarter part of him wanted to stay away, let Peter stew a while – a long while, let him linger until the pain became as much a part of him as the color of his eyes or the lines on his palms.
It galled him how at how easily Peter was able to do this to him, how he knew just how deep to stick the knife, just how much to twist it to make him bleed. And as bad as that pain was, the fact that he didn’t run – he didn’t even think of running, was worse.
Neal knew that the first words out of Peter’s mouth, once he picked his jaw up off the floor, were going to be “I’m sorry.” And then he’d try to explain everything.
Neal was certain that he’d forgive Peter, and they’d even be happy again – all three of them. But Neal wasn’t sure if he could ever trust Peter the way he had – wholly and without reservation.
Between the three of them, there had never been any calculation on the price of love – they all gave in equal portions of risk and joy. But now, Neal wondered how often he was going to have to measure out his commitment, if he would be better off holding back just enough to keep himself whole and sane when this happened again.
It was quiet in the main room.
Moz was leaning against the doorframe, watching him. As Neal walked by – to start something, or to finish it, he stopped, brushed a kiss against his friend’s cheek and whispered, “Thank you.”
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to keep himself whole and sane when this happened again.
*winces because Neal didn't think "if."
I do hope he punishes him adequately.
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I love Mozzie and Neal in this; the kiss on the cheek was beautiful.
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However--well, I'm glad that this stuff is coming out and that Neal has to re-examine the way he looks at Peter. Maybe if they get through this, they'll all (eventually) come out the stronger for it.
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