Keller loved to talk, and El got a much better insight into his obsession with Neal than she really wanted to, and a lot more insight into Neal's past than she'd ever hoped - or feared - and when she came home, she spent a lot of time with Neal, trying to help him balance all the darkness of his past with the bright future he could have (with them); she couldn't help seeing him as a complicated Rubic's cube, and if she could just help him figure out how to untwist himself, it would all fall into place.